Oh terrible week, please end soon!!!

I am starting to realize that one of my biggest weaknesses is wanting to help everyone, and not being able to say no! Here's my story... about a month ago, a girl in one of my classes was asking if anyone would be willing to help out and babysit for her sister. She then continued by stating that she was a single mom, and just needed an extra babysitter one or maybe sometimes two days a week. After she said that her sister lived in American Fork, I told her that I could probably help out once a week since I am home now. I gave her my number, and told her to have her sister call me if she needed anyone.

About a month went by and I didn't hear anything so honestly kind of forgot about it and went on with my normal routine. Well this past Friday I got a phone call kind of like this "hi, this is so and so's sister calling about you babysitting for me. I am starting a new job on Monday and will just need you Monday to Friday from 8-5, will that be ok?" I was so shocked and didn't really have a chance to think about it so I just said "I guess so". That was pretty much it. I was not at all wanting to babysit everyday, for 45 hours a week! She also told me how much she would pay me, and although the extra money sounded nice... it wasn't very much for 9 hours of babysitting per day... would it be worth it?

My answer for you is NO. It is not worth it. I have felt so stressed and depressed all week. The only time I have left the house has been to go to class last night. I hate being stuck inside all day, and it is so hard to watch someone else's child that I don't even know. She is a very cute girl, but cries and screams anytime I hold Brynn, or walk away from her. After one day of watching her, I told her mom I could only watch her twice a week because it was way too much for me, and I think today I am going to have to tell her that I can't do it at all after next week because it is causing much more stress than I need right now. I just want this week to be over so I can have a weekend without babysitting! I think I am finally going to say no for one of the first times in my life, and I am already stressed about the mother's reaction and haven't even told her yet!

Now on a positive note... I found a really good deal on a plane ticket so I bought it! (After looking for weeks, and having Jesse tell me repeatedly to just buy one because family is more important than money)- thanks hunny :) So Brynn and I are going to Pennsylvania 2 weeks from today to see my family! I am so excited to see them, and sad that Jesse can't come on this trip. I think it will be good for me though, and I can't wait for my family to see Brynn! I am already stressing about the flights though, and how I am going to carry everything and travel with her on my own!

Another happy thing... Jesse and I just ordered a computer! At last! I can't wait for it to get here! We decided to be completely irresponsible and spend some of my extra vacation pay from work on a computer. I told Jesse that I couldn't stay home all day without a computer and access to the internet! So I should be able to post pictures more frequently once that gets here. And sorry there are no pictures this time. I honestly don't think I have taken any this week (that tells you how crazy things have been)!